Total pages in book: 97
Estimated words: 92841 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 464(@200wpm)___ 371(@250wpm)___ 309(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 92841 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 464(@200wpm)___ 371(@250wpm)___ 309(@300wpm)
I open the book and, despite my hesitancy, get lost in the story. I don’t even realize I’ve been reading for hours, until I glance out my window and see it’s dark outside.
I’m about halfway through the book when the story begins to heat up. The heroine is a virgin who has practically zero experience, and the hero has no problem being her teacher …
“Have you ever given yourself an orgasm?”
Her cheeks tinge pink, giving me my answer.
“Oh, baby. Be prepared to have your mind blown.”
As I read the scene, I can’t help but imagine the characters are Shane and me, and while I’m not a virgin, because it’s been years since I’ve been with a man, he’s patiently walking me through it, taking his time and reminding me how good it feels to be intimate with someone.
I drop down between her legs and lick up her center, inhaling her sweet musk. While I slowly lick her clit, I reach up and tweak her nipple.
With one hand holding the book, my other hand skates underneath my pajama shorts and underwear and lands between my legs. I slide my fingers between my lips and find my clit. I’m turned on from the buildup of the scene, so it’s easy to swipe through my wetness and use it as friction as I massage my swollen nub, quickly bringing myself to a climax.
“Chase,” she breathes. “I’m … I think I’m going to—”
With a little bit of pressure, my orgasm hits me, and before I can think about what I’m doing, Shane’s name spills from my lips as I come long and hard to the visual of him eating me out.
For several seconds, the release of dopamine and oxytocin helps me forget the world around me. In this moment, it’s only me and Shane and …
Holy shit! I pull my hand out, drop my book, and sit up. I just came to the thought of another man … a man who isn’t my husband.
With that realization, guilt rises, threatening to choke me. I climb out of bed, bringing my hands to my throat as I fight to breathe.
I can’t believe I just did that. I’m married, and I got off to the thought of another man’s touch, of his tongue. I cried out his name when I came.
“I’m a cheater,” I choke out as tears prick my lids and spill over. “I’m a fucking cheater.”
“No, Kinsley, you’re a widow,” I imagine Julia saying to me. “Your husband is no longer alive. You can’t cheat on the dead.”
I know she’s right, but it still feels wrong … dirty.
I strip off my clothes and get into the shower without waiting for the water to warm, allowing the freezing cold drops to pelt my skin like a punishment.
Once it heats up, I wash my body, trying to rid myself of any thoughts of Shane, but it’s no use because the more I try to forget about him, the more I think about him.
“There’s only one way to get him out of my mind,” I say out loud. “And that’s to never see him again.”
Once I towel off my body and get dressed, I grab my phone and pull up the online schedule. I find Shane’s name and hover above it for several seconds before I click on it and then cancel his appointment.
Unprofessional? Definitely.
But it’s the only way.
“You look so good,” my aunt Celeste says for the third time, smiling at me.
I’ve only been at the barbecue for less than a half hour, and I’m already regretting showing up.
I love my family, but because of how close everyone is, that means they care even more. And everyone has spent the past three years worrying about me.
“Thank you,” I say for the third time. “Are you excited about Milan?”
She shrugs and smiles. “Jase and I have spoken, and this is going to be our last Fashion Week. My girls have the company under control, so I’ve decided to officially retire. I miss my grandbabies when I’m gone, and now, with Melina …”
“Melina?” I ask, confused when Celeste clamps her mouth shut.
“Sorry,” she whispers. “I’m not supposed to say anything.”
Just as she finishes her sentence, James, Melina’s boyfriend, clanks a knife against his glass to gather everyone’s attention.
Once everyone is quiet, he begins to speak, thanking everyone for welcoming him into the fold. Then, he goes on to talk about how he and Melina met and how she’s quickly come to mean the world to him.
And then, once Melina is standing in front of him, he pulls out a ring box and gets down on one knee. “Some might say what’s happening between us is moving too fast, but I’ve always believed that when you know, you know. And I know that I want to spend my life with you …”