Total pages in book: 168
Estimated words: 160782 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 804(@200wpm)___ 643(@250wpm)___ 536(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 160782 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 804(@200wpm)___ 643(@250wpm)___ 536(@300wpm)
6/1/2007
Joshua came to wake me up this morning, he came into my tent and told me he has been thinking about me all night and hadn’t slept. I couldn’t help it, I made him lie next to me and we kissed for over an hour. I have never felt so…happy. He makes me feel special.
My eyes flick to the perfect woman lying beside me and I put my hand on her leg. “That’s because you are special, precious girl,” I whisper as I lean and kiss her again and inhale her scent.
6/1/2007
I’m being bad, I can’t help it. I asked Joshua to come to me tonight when everyone has gone to bed. He said no. I’m an idiot. I am forcing myself onto him. I will not embarrass myself tomorrow. I will stay away from Joshua, and if it kills me.
My face drops; is that how she felt…because that’s how I felt.
7/1/2007
Joshua came to me last night. I woke up and he was in bed with me. It was perfect and…he was hard. We made out all night.
I have never felt like this. The clothes stayed on, but I wanted them off. I wish I was more experienced, so I knew how to please him.
I frown as I read the last line, is she kidding? She was my every fucking wet dream come true, hot, smart, beautiful…innocent. How could she have thought that she didn’t please me? I put the book to the side and lie down next to her. I shouldn’t be reading this, but I can’t help myself. I lean over her and kiss her gently on the lips.
“Presh…wake up, baby. I want to see if you are ok.”
No response. I pick the book back up and continue reading.
10/1/2007
I love him.
I love him and I can’t have him. We laugh all day and make out all night. He is perfect, my every dream.
My face drops.
14/1/2006
Things have turned physical between us. Last night we were both completely naked together. Joshua is so patient and gentle with me…he is teaching me how to orgasm. I love him so much. I need him in my life.
16/1/2007
He wore me down.
I couldn’t help it. Joshua has been trying to go down on me all week and I haven’t wanted him to. I’m embarrassed. Tonight, he took over and wouldn’t listen to me. OMG. HE IS AMAZING. I took him in my mouth too but he wouldn’t come in my mouth. He tasted perfect. I never thought sex would be as beautiful as this.
I smile broadly, this is exactly how I remember everything. I wouldn’t come in her mouth because I didn’t want her first head job to be traumatizing. My face drops as I realize that thought. I loved her even then.
18/1/2007
I want it to be Joshua. I want to give my virginity to him so he will always know that I love him. I don’t know how to ask him, he may not want to sleep with his cousin. WHY ARE WE RELATED?
I close my eyes in pain, why are we related?
19/1/2007
Joshua and I made love last night. It was beautiful and it fucking hurt. I am no longer a virgin. I told him I loved him, but he didn’t say it back…it hurt my feelings.
I put the book down and rub my face with both hands. I knew I fucking hurt her. I can still remember the feeling of her hanging on to me so tightly. Christ, why the fuck am I reading this shit? It’s messing with my head. She always tells me she loves me and I never fucking say it back. What’s wrong with me?
23/1/2007
Joshua and I cannot get enough of each other. We sneak away every chance we get. We can’t stop, I will never get enough of him. We are now making love at least four times a night, it doesn’t hurt anymore…it feels good…amazing. I’m addicted to his touch…to his love. We only have two more weeks together. Joshua told me he has never been in love before, but he thinks he loves me. I hope he does!
I smile and keep reading
23/1/2007
Joshua makes me laugh. We get each other’s jokes when no one else understands what we are talking about. Even without the sex he is my perfect man, tall, athletic, smart. He looks at me this way when he thinks I’m not watching, and he cracks his neck. It’s the hottest thing I have ever see…it means he is getting hard. Ready for me, my new favorite thing is going down on him. I love watching him come apart…so hot.
I rearrange the erection in my boxer shorts. Reading that she loved going down on me even back then is a major turn on. I can remember how much she used to love it…it’s burned into my brain. My eyes flick to her half-naked body sprawled out on the bed. Ohh, you’re going to cop it, baby girl, when you wake up. Hard, I need it hard. I stroke myself to try and stop the need. I bend and kiss her stomach gently and my cock hardens further. God, I want her.