Total pages in book: 152
Estimated words: 145155 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 726(@200wpm)___ 581(@250wpm)___ 484(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 145155 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 726(@200wpm)___ 581(@250wpm)___ 484(@300wpm)
“Just come over when you finish work and we can work it out baby, OK?”
I can hear him thinking. “Bye, Tash.” And he hangs up the phone.
It’s twelve o’clock and I am wide awake, heartsick but awake. Joshua hasn’t called me or come over and I am beginning to think the worst. If I wasn’t waiting for him to come over, I would be driving around spying on him. Where is he? What is he doing? And what has changed so dramatically between us that he can’t talk to me and tell me what’s going on? I hear the key in my door, and I lie still with my heart trying to pump through my chest. He came. He fusses around in the kitchen for a few minutes and I hear him put his keys and wallet on the side table. I’m not angry anymore, I’m
freaking out. I don’t want to be a drama queen, but my gut feeling is that something is seriously off between us. He walks over to the side of the bed and turns the side lamp on. I lie still as I watch him, unable to pretend that he hasn’t upset me. He gives me a sad smile and bends to gently kiss me on the lips as he brushes the hair back from my face and sits next to me.
“Hi, my beautiful girl,” he whispers.
That is all it takes and I grab him into a tight embrace. “Josh, please talk to me, you promised me honesty.”
He nods. “I know, Presh.” I frown. He bends and gently kisses me again, his tongue lingering in my mouth. “I love you,” he whispers. “That’s the honest truth, does that count for anything?”
Tears fill my eyes. “Are you mad at me, Josh? Have I done something to upset you?”
He smiles at me. “No, baby, you have done nothing wrong. Stop worrying. I’m here now.”
I cuddle him tighter. “Baby, you’re scaring me, you’re acting weird.”
He nods and smiles. “I am weird. Are you just figuring that out?”
I giggle as I hug him just that bit tighter. “Take your clothes off and get into bed, Josh. I’ve missed you today.”
He smiles into my neck. “Same,” he whispers. He takes off his clothes and lies on his back next to me and I look at him with a puzzled face. Is he not touching me?
“Make love to me, Tash. I’m going to lie still. I want you to touch me like you love me.”
I smile. “That won’t be hard, Josh. I do love you.” He gently swipes his fingertips over my lips as he looks at me. Maybe things are not so bad, perhaps I am just being a drama queen. I bend down and gently kiss him as my hands wander down his torso over his ripped stomach. He sticks to his word and lies motionless as he watches me, his breath catching as I run my tongue up his beautiful long length. Our eyes lock as I take him deep into my mouth while sucking, his mouth hanging slack, weak from arousal. His hands gently run through my hair. I love it when he does that to me—runs his hands gently through my hair while taking pleasure from my mouth, it turns me on big-time. He grabs my hands and links our fingers so he is holding my hands. The memory of the first time he went down on me and he did that runs rampant through my mind. I love the intimate gesture of holding my hands. It’s so simple, but it means so much to me and he knows it.
“I can’t wait for you, precious. Mount me.”
I frown and smile. “You know I can’t take you like that without you warming me up first, you’re too big.”
He smiles and pulls me down for a kiss and his tongue dives into my mouth as he demands intimacy. “I know. I want you to try. I want to feel how perfectly tight you are around me. I need to have it burned into my brain.”
I frown, he’s talking riddles again. “I am not going to be tight for much longer, Josh. I have a taste for this now.”
He gives me a sad smile and nods. “I know,” he whispers as he closes his eyes as if in pain. I move up onto my knees as he holds the base so I can mount him and I was right, it’s too big. He won’t fit so I need him to stretch me first. “Tash, kiss me and take it slow. I know you can take me.” I nod again and start to kiss him deeply. With each lash of his tongue I open just that little farther and within ten minutes he’s completely in. I don’t know whether he’s in heaven or hell because his face is showing indicators of both. I start to move, and he stills my hips with his hands.