Total pages in book: 168
Estimated words: 160782 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 804(@200wpm)___ 643(@250wpm)___ 536(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 160782 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 804(@200wpm)___ 643(@250wpm)___ 536(@300wpm)
His angry eyes meet mine.
I shake my head nervously as tears of guilt fill my eyes. His glare holds mine. “How long?’
I frown, not understanding the question. “What do you mean?”
“How long have you wanted him?”
My eyes widen in shock as I understand the question. “I haven’t wanted him, we are friends,” I whisper, mortified.
Joshua raises an eyebrow in disgust. “Do not insult my fucking intelligence!” he yells, making me jump.
I swallow the lump of fear in my throat and drop my head. “Nothing has ever happened,” I whisper.
“When he told you to think of him while we had sex, is that what you have been doing all along?”
My mouth drops open in horror. “Oh my God, no, how could you think such a thing? I have only gotten to know him in the last six months and we are just friends.”
“A friend you are attracted to.”
I nod softly. “Yes,” I whisper as shame rips through my stomach and the tears fall onto my cheeks.
“He said you loved it.” He runs his tongue over his front teeth in contempt as his eyes bore holes through me.
“I know and I am never speaking to him again for lying to you like that. He’s baiting you, Joshua, and you took it hook, line and sinker. Nothing has ever happened between us, I promise,” I cry.
He pulls out of my grip and storms to the shower and I run after him like a lost lamb.
“Don’t be angry at me,” I plead.
He undresses in silence and steps into the shower.
“You are the one who wanted me to do this and I couldn’t do it!” I yell.
He turns his back on me in anger.
I start to slowly undress and step in with him.
“Josh, he turned up here tonight to ask me on a date. I said no and he was just leaving when you arrived.”
He turns and his haunted eyes meet mine as the water runs over our heads.
“Baby.” The pain in his eyes rips my heart wide open. I rub my hand through his stubble and go onto my tiptoes to gently kiss his lips. “I love you so much.”
He drops his head to my shoulder, and I can feel his hurt. I know how it feels to have dark suspicions, it hurts.
We stand for a long time in an embrace, both lost in our own thoughts, with the water running over us. Eventually he lifts my chin up to meet his face, and his lips gently take mine.
I nod softly. “I get it, Josh…I finally get it. What you have been telling me all along. Sex is sex and love is love.”
He kisses me tenderly again and his tongue swipes through my open mouth.
“For the first time I understand why you slept with Amelie,” I sob loudly as tears rack my chest.
He pulls back and frowns.
“I understand when I wouldn’t forgive you how much that must have hurt.”
“It damn near killed me,” he whispers as he drops his head to my shoulder.
I shake my head as the raw burn of pain sears my heart. I can’t imagine the pain of sleeping with someone different and living with that guilt forever. Of losing the one that you really do love for a lifetime in the name of fifteen minutes of sex.
I pull his face back to mine. “Joshua, I love you desperately. Our life together starts tonight, right now.” I smile and nod. “We are going to live in LA.” I kiss him gently. “We are going to be so happy.” I smile into his kiss as I feel his resistance melt. “We are too strong to be broken…we have proven that…time and again.”
He kisses me more firmly as our passion starts to reignite. “Take me,” I whisper into his mouth. “Show me how much I mean to you.” My eyes drop to the large erection hanging heavily between his legs. I can see every wide vein on it pumping with arousal, waiting to give my body what it needs, to finally fill me totally.
He groans and slams me into the wall as his hand grips me painfully on the behind. His mouth drops to my neck and he bites me aggressively, and goosebumps scatter over my flesh. This is when we are at our best, our bodies so in sync with each other’s that we couldn’t stop this animal attraction even if we tried. This is love in its deepest form. He lifts me aggressively and holds me with my legs around his waist and he slams into me. His mouth hangs slack as his hooded eyes watch me struggle to take his thick large length. I can feel his heart beating through his chest as he struggles to hold himself still to let me adjust.
I cry out as his flesh rips through me and heats my blood, and my head drops back against the tiles in both pleasure and pain as my eyes close.